A light flutter, simple vibration, sharp sting. Feeling the eyes, while the weight sinks in. Terror becomes salvation, a guide to life unimaginable. Once feared, now loved, cutting ties. No discernable countenance, no intelligible name. Yet such understanding and devotion felt. Break down divisional barriers. See all with the eye unseen. Diving into the maelstrom …
“To us, the Realm of Spirit is broad, roomy, all inclusive; never exclusive or forbidding to those who earnestly seek. It is open, we believe, to all men.” Having been opened up to the realm of the spirit, I began researching old text trying to find an understanding of what was happening. The first thing …
The journey of discovery begets falsity. Definable truth dismantled into subjectivity. Ever changing in the tides of time. Afloat in the darkness of chaos, seeking solid footing. If comfort is sought, remain in ignorance. There is no respite in knowledge. I am not what I was, I am that I am, we are. Integrate or …
A call to the universe has been answered, Bringing unexplainable circumstance. Fear creeps in like an unwelcome lover, Whispering thoughts into my mind. Slowly I realize the power of consciousness, The power of gods brought forth by will. I am no longer a slave to another’s reality, No longer a slave to mind or emotion. …
Disastrous pitfalls of the mind conflicting with self preservation, Descending from the heights of elation. The vast desert of reality pummeling with waves of torridity, Searching and striving for personal legacy. What does this future hold for any of us? What if anything is listening to the prayers of all religion? I cast my voice …
Lack of inspiration and a blank mind contribute to my jaded existence. I want to feel, I want to care, but a lack of fucks is always there. Feeling like a sociopath, Forever in a state of disillusionment. Wanting to be left alone, Yet feeling so lonely. I am my enemy, I am my demise. …
I’m feeling a great deal of acceptance in my situation and who I am at this moment. I’ve been judging myself through other people’s eyes for far too long, and I feel like I’m getting a glimpse of who I’m truly meant to be. Other people don’t have to agree with it, and the further …
I left off with a trial by fire, but hadn’t realized that it was only the beginning of my ordeals at the time. It’s been a while since I’ve written, and much has taken place. I finally feel like I’m in a safe space and able to formulate my thoughts in a cohesive manner in …
I had no idea what was to become of me in the months and years to follow. The woman I began dating and I were falling in love even though neither of us really wanted to. We saw more and more of each other and I began to want things to move in a more …
At this point I was sponsoring other guys and helping them to find recovery. Until now everything was about me, and I wasn’t really giving anything back. This is where things really began to change for me. Good and bad, but changes none the less. You learn more about yourself when you help others than …